I grew up at school the local retard. No really, I did act crazy. And because of that, I suffered much rejection and social out casting. Two years after graduation- I grew up. And I do not act like I used to, I swear! I am not the idiot I used to be and now yes, I do associate with people like a normal person now! I am making a second chance for myself now and I am starting my way to moving towards a career. But what am I left with? Memories that bring on regret that causes my chest to throb, so that I just lay there on the bed, as if to let it all bleed out but it never bleeds out? The recovery from growing up as some 'thing'? A fear and distrust of teenagers, guys/men? If a group of giggling teenage girls in the canteen cause me to get paranoid then guys are like, way more opposite. Apart from my dad, whom I do not see as any more then just my dad and not a possible threat, and my brothers who do not count as I and other people along with me say that they are NOT normal, I don't hang out with guys. Well, I do talk to them and act normal around them, and if you were a guy and I was talking to you then you would never know that you intimidate me. Well, nowadays you might not know any way, because I’ve gotton pretty good at hiding it. But I can't let guys any closer, afraid they'll think I'm the freak from next Tuesday. Guys have less of an emotion range then girls, right? At least that's what I've been told. I don't know how much compassion they have, whether they'll act like ...

My fear is that I am perceived as a geek by my co-workers. I have always been considered nerdy by my family, and I am sick of this label. I want to change my image but I am not sure how to do it. I work in a high-profile company and almost everyone who I work with is together and professional. I hope I can fit in too because for the first time in my life I really love my job.

After seeing the devastation caused by Katrina, I feel very vulnerable living in South Florida.

I'm more afraid of jumping than I am of heights

Too claustrophobic